How is tonight ending on such a sweet note? This is amazing. And supernatural!
Today:
-I thought I would work and make a lot of money to pay the rent that is due now; but today's work didn't work out.
-Was left with another day off, when I really didn't want a day off (isn't that weird?)
-Didn't eat until dinner (but that was intentional)
-I spent a lot of time reading wedding blogs at the coffee shop, when in my mind that isn't 'accomplishing' much.
-Got rear-ended by a car
-A masked gunman caused the town to shut down for a few hours
-We had to cancel our MorningStar meeting because the campus was on lockdown
-Just cried with a friend about her excruciating breakup
But i feel great!! That is the grace of God.
He actually showed me last night that I'm 'in the wardrobe'- like Lucy! I'm in a transition in my life, where I have already left behind a lot of the joys that were in the house and I'm walking toward Narnia, but I can't see it yet! I think I'm starting to brush against some of the pine needles, but it has not enveloped my senses yet. I can't touch it, but I know it's coming. It's hard to explain, but it makes so much sense right now! That's why I've been feeling kind of numb. I've given up a lot of pleasures I used to feel out of ignorance. I'm seeking hard after Truth. I can feel it coming, and see it sometimes, but it hasn't become a full reality I can walk in.
I want to live supernaturally, like Jesus. I'm tired of not hearing God. The sweetness I feel tonight is one of those pine needle branches. I'd better grab a fur coat...
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