Well, our prayer all along has been for God to root the junk out of us before we say our vows. Stuart has prayed that over and over and... it happens! Issues just pop up. It can be messy, but it is good. The theory is that it is better to deal with this personal stuff now than add it onto all the other challenges of marital life.
This past week has been very intense for me in my head. By yesterday I felt like I was going CRAZY- everything was messed up- my finances, my body (unexplained wrist pains?), I was hating my job, and I just couldn't get along with my fiance for days! That's just to name a few. I even told Stuart that I didn't like him, which has never happened before! (We often discuss the 'like vs. love' thing. We'll always love each other, but sometimes it's harder to like the other. That's when a principle we invented called 'Love in Faith' must be employed. You actively love, even when you don't feel like it...and it's not easy)
It's OK though- that stuff is just all the 'junk'. Or some of it.
Stuart had many opportunities to be kind of mad at me for the way I was acting (going crazy), but he kept just looking at me and telling me how fun I was to be around! Or how sweet I am, and that he's so excited we get to be together forever! It was actually hilarious to me, because the things he would say did not match up with the way I was at the time but he was being serious! It was very weird- he wasn't trying to strategically prophesy to me (I don't think), or trick me into being nice again.
He, somehow, was bigger than the problems and was able to see the Truth instead of the chaos.
So today is perfect timing for our first counseling session. It's so obvious how God is playing out this 'story', and brings his characters to the point of despair right before the help comes. It makes for a very good story. I feel very small and cartoon-like in His hands.
I'll keep you posted on how it goes!
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